I feel this whenever I want my T to be something she's not. It starts with a faint sense of disappointment, then my stomach feels funny, not exactly hurting, but aching. Then it goes to my heart, and I feel like there are 1000 arrows piercing it. If I'm alone, I start to cry, but if I'm in my session, I sit there and tell her I'm feeling that "quicksand" feeling. I feel like I'm sinking and part of me just wants to die. It's a horrible feeling. Sometimes my face gets flushed and I feel like I'm burning up because the shame of wanting my T to be "that person" for me. I feel a sense of wanting something so badly that I can't live without it.