I SEE YOU!!!! And I think you are such a wonderful person! I wish you lived close to me so we could hang out. I really understand the past screwing up the present. It's really frustating and sad. But you'll get through it. Remember: this too will pass. My hope for is that one day you'll look around, realize how wonderful you are and take out the trash! And by trash, I mean all those people who treat you badly. I did that a few years ago and it was wonderful! Dealing with my stuff is hard enough without having people around who are hurtfull and adding pain and stress to my life rather than being beacons of light. It can feel lonely sometimes but i'd rather be lonely than miserable. I love you, Fuzzy! You're going to be OK! You are O.K. Annie