1) C and I no longer see each other
2) No out of session contact
3) Psych ward won't take me no matter how serious the matter
4)No crisis lines for me they make me worse

no one wants to help me, the psych ward and my psych doc think I'm not serious. Really? I'm NOT SERIOUS? I went to them told them I had a plan, detailed it out, showed them my suicide note, showed them the cuts on my arms, and I'm just doing it for attention?

How about tonight when I got in a burning hot bath, grabbed some beers, grabbed my pills and drank a few beers and popped alot of my pills and ended up sick for quite a while? Hmmm?! When I OD'd before in october they kept me one night and sent me packing, meanwhile someone else who is having anxiety, not panic attacks just general anxiety gets admitted like wtf you assholes. ****. What am I suppose to do? Where am I suppose to go? No one wants to help me. And you want to know why? because I didn't pay the bill from the first stay. Cause I had no insurance. So they won't help me.

Well it'll be alot more work, time and money to have me in the morgue and to do my autopsy