Not too crazy, in my opinion. I frequently wish I could TRADE my mental problems for something less "shameful" or "fake" according to societal norms. I've been quite frustrated by this recently because my problems keep interrupting what I'm trying to do in life; trying to explain extended absences without lying but without revealing the whole mental illness thing is really complicated!

It makes me want to escape my current situations for new ones to have a fresh start, so to speak. Unfortunately, I know that has (at least) 2 problems: 1. it is just evading the problem, and 2. it will only work until my next essentially inevitable disappearance.

I hear you.