Only one thing you said sounds right - that you and your GF should break up. No, you shouldn't give up on your current wellness treatment. You should keep on getting better. But I think if your GF cannout let go of the past and keeps throwing it in your face, she will not do your recovery anygood. You do not deserve blame or scorn for your past; you were unwell. If she didn't like it back then she could have broken up with you. And no she doesn't deserve payback, a healthy relationship has no revenge entitlements. You're meant to see and help each other through the good times and the bad. If she could not cope with the bad she should have got out before now. Now you should get out because she is jeopardising your future well-being and she sounds like a horrible nasty cow. Juat my opinion. If you have apologised and tried to make ammends for any damage you did, then that is good enough. And if you are trying to be a better person now, then that is good enough. And for her to blame all of your emotions and reactions on BP moments is just rubbish. You are allowed to feel emotions, normal feeling of emotions and feelings. Just because we are dx'd BP doesn't mean BP is all we think and feel. It does not define us. Good luck to you.