Argh!!!!

So tired and..... so mad I could spit nails!! ....

why does she do this all the time? how do I let it happen?? get myself feeling I finally do belong, then she goes and leaves me out......

Is it just me?? Maybe it's OK for family to tell you of an event that is coming-- but not the date and then, not contact you again until after it's over....... and then tell you how great it was, they got to see cousin so and so and aunt what's her name......

I was left out again.... I've always been quiet, don't ever cause trouble..... why aren't I included?? Hurts to keep being left out..... I only ever wanted to belong... maybe I'm too quiet(hardly ever talk), or too small(I'm the shortest in my family) is my hair too brown or maybe it's my eyes. Did I know too many secrets when I was little-- so I'm not a good candidate for a family member?? WHAT?? What IS it???

is this really me posting this??

thank you.
mandy