H4M - to clarify, I am not married. Never have been. I have not even dated for years. The last woman I was interested in broke my heart. We were coworkers, we became the very best of friends, and then had feelings for each other. I dare say we had an emotional affair. But, she wanted to make it physical, she actually asked me to meet her in a hotel parking lot and wanted me to go inside with her. I said no - the wrinkle, she was married, to a real creep - emotionally abusive, cold. But she was a really devout Catholic and would not leave him. So, it ended.

I am keeping this from my three older sisters and two bil's - I think they would hate me forever.