Hello & Welcome, Trippy!
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Originally Posted by Trippy
...I have a pretty good life. The only devastating thins that have recently occurred is that my dad almost attempted suicide in front of me and my mom has terminal cancer. but my step dad is very loving and sacrifices a lot for my 14yr old sister and I. Hes very fun and reasonable.
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You may not be consciously feeling the stress from your father's suicide attempt and your mother's terminal illness, but I would hardly dismiss them as potent sources for what you are experiencing. Goodness, you've a family history of suicide/suicide attempts on both sides.
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Originally Posted by Trippy
...lost almost all motivation for photography and art and skateboarding
...I have been getting really disorganized lately and unable to keep track of my thoughts.
...I hear voices...very specific in their goals and objectives...very vivid auditories and very startling.
...picked up self harm again.
...thought about suicide quite a bit. The closest I've came is just a kick of a chair away.
...have started harder drugs like cocaine and LSD aside from weed.
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Even if it means some friction with your parents, I believe it's in your best interest to go for help as soon as possible. Do you have someone at your school you trust - any teacher, counselor, nurse, administrator?
Please keep posting, Trippy.
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