please make it stop please make it stop I cant deal with this right now everything sets me off triggers I cant deal with this right now I dont want to deal with this right now.

I cant cut I want to but I cant because if I do then i've really screwed up and nobody understands and nobody is there for me and I need support but I cant ask for it because it would hurt too many people or they might be upset with me and all I want to do is make people happy and not have them leave me even though that is exactly what I want because I dont deserve anything good.

why wont these thoughts END?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay, promise no cutting. Cant promise much else but I promise that. I also promised no drinking this week so that doesnt give me much to work with.

I wish I didnt stress myself out unconciously. I wish things wouldnt bother me set me off upset me and generally make me feel absolutely horrible.

I wish I could get the bad thoughts out of my head - everything bad people have said to me, inflicted on me, physically done to me ... I want it to all go away.

please just give me a break life, just a 10 minute breather before something else goes bad in my life or in my head...

Okay, i'm going to try to go to bed.

thanks for listening.