thanks for all the kind words. I think I have a big problem letting go of my past. I tend to remember my mistakes (all of them, not just those related to bipolar) and beat myself up over it. I try to focus only on the good, to push the bad memories out of my mind. I suppose that makes me overly sensitive when my mistakes are pointed out.

My GF... she isn't a bad person. She is a woman that has been pushed too far. She has stood by me and supported me throughout my untreated manic states and extreme depressions. When we found out that I had bipolar she started reading and learning all she could about managing symptoms, treatment and medications. In fact, the medication that I am on now (Lamictal & Seroquel) is a result of her research. I did not write this to bash her. I am disappointed that I have not been forgiven, however she does deserve understanding and time. She gave that to me, I think that is the least I can to for her to atone for what I have done.