What scares me is that my Dad is Bipolar and his brother is Schizophrenic. On top of that my mom has two siblings that are Borderline Personality. If I'm understanding my research correctly i fear I may be developing Borderline or Schizophrenia.

Here in Texas at least a counselor is obligated to tell the parents if a mental illness is suspected or if the word "suicide" ,just the mere word, comes up inconversation and it would **** up my family. My little sister has already watched me degrade. I dont think I can afford to hurt her anymore with my nonsense. I've always fantasized about killing myself once I graduate. Make it look like i went missing or something.

Trippy