Hey guys,

Thank you for the replies. I did go into hospital after a suicide attempt. The pdoc decided that it was not the right time for me to be admitted, because for some reason I stopped being suicidal right after I took the OD. I got my bf to call the ambulance, and I had been on the bus to the hospital anyway, so I'm still not sure why.

I got an appointment with a pdoc but it's not till January. I am still unsteady but doing much better, mostly because of my bf (WHO IS NOW MY FIANCE, tough that's not just because I wasn't doing well as I asked him because I couldn't hold it in any more so don't worry about that), BUT, I'm still up and down.

I was triggered just 5 min ago by another thread, so I am going to go curl up with my SO now and cry, but I wanted to post here first as a destruction and because I wanted to reply before I read the other post.

Anyway, I spoke to my mom about the repressed memory and she took it well said that no matter what she wants to find out and get me the help I need. She said i mentioned it before and since then she's been trying to remember what it might have been but she doesn't know. No one in my family I know can think of even what might have happened, and my family is not the type to keep secrets. They are my number one support.

I'm still very scared about all of this and don't know what's going to happen next. My DID symptoms have been happening more, but my finance has been really wonderful dealing with them and with everything that's been going on.

thank you again for the replies.

ps, blueredgrey, I am on meds. I have bipolar disorder so antidepressants wouldn't do anything for me. I'm on lithium for mood stabilization. Thank you for the suggestion ((hug))