So I have revealed my cutting to my T. However I haven't told her I've been misusing/abusing my Seroquel, I'm supposed to take 1 100 mg pill a night, however whenever cutting isn't enough or I just don't feel like being conscious I'll pop 4-5 of them and not wake up till the next day in the afternoon or evening. Whatever. I have yet to tell my T, I've been doing this since early November.
My thing is is that something like this, lying by omission, makes the relationship artificial/superficial at best. I feel it's built on false pretenses and it makes it hard for me to believe her when she expresses genuine emotion for me. For example when she says she cares for me, I can't believe her because what if she sees this part of me? I just feel this wall between us whenever i lie by my omission. I am planning on telling my T this session.
I do want to make a note that my T has told me that I can feel free not to tell her things, that when I'm ready to tell her I will, and thats okay. But to me it still affects the relationship in an unhealthy way.
I was just wonder what your guy's feelings and thoughts were on lying by omission and how it affects the relationship?
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