Thanks, I'm glad your T took your attraction and shameful moments well too. I would imagine that talking about both of those must have been very difficult. I myself will be telling my T about my attraction for her soon. That's good that you can at least trust that your T will take it well, and I can see your hesitation for fear of being hospitalized. Sometimes I have found that revealing unhealthy things to my T has made me less likely to continue to do those things. Hope you can find the courage to let her know.