I can't afford part time nor would I feel right taking someone else's job. She is a good worker and a friend and I couldn't do that to her. Besides, I can't afford the pay cut. Especially if I end up off of work. I will only get 60% of my pay if I do and 60% of my half time salary is peanuts.

I have no idea how long it will be before I have the results. On Wednesday they are doing an ultrasound to determine if the next step will be a biopsy or MRI. The last time I needed an MRI it took a month to get in.

I fear if I do apply they may offer the position and I will have cancer and get fired because I'm not covered under FMLA and need time off. I also fear I will first find out I have cancer and then they'll offer the job and I'll turn it down and burn a bridge. I can't afford any bridge burning.