I do genuinely care about him as a friend, and it was going to lead to something more, but because of his unstableness and his issues, there's a lot of drama that I can't really get into that circles him. Well, because of those things I figured it would be best to just be platonic friends, cause I need to figure him out more and he needs to sort things out in his life as well. I feel bad if I was leading him on, but those certainly weren't my intentions. I might like the attention, but I do genuinely care about him and his well being. I want to reach out to him and help him as much as I can cause I do love him. I know it's not based on getting attention. I have issues with the whole friend thing cause there were a lot of people I cared about who I thought were my friends but ended up not being my friends and completely cut me out of their lives and used me, so I cling onto pretty much any person that comes in my life, and if he is reaching out to other people then I am going to take it personally and act sensitive about the situation cause I will think in my head "Oh he doesn't look at me as a friend he is like everyone else. Just uses me and mistakes my kindness for weakness"

I just don't want him to cut me out of his life, cause I do care about him. I got cut out of peoples lives too much and it broke my heart tremendously cause I do love people and always want to be there for people but people take advantage of my kindness and use it till I realize what they are doing then they split. I guess that is why I would be upset if he were to talk to other people about his situation and not me. Cause then I wouldn't feel like a friend to him. Thank you for commenting, I do appreciate it.