Here's what I explained to her:

It went from "feeling like someone scooped out my emotions," to "If I can't feel anything then I must not be human" to "how do I prove this? crap I can't because I'm from my husband's imagination. Now, that he's getting comfortable in himself he doesn't need me and is slowly killing me. That's why it feels like my rib cage is being torn from my body." Spent a good week there but as of last night (12/4) it was "Is he real?" after a long conversation I fell asleep. Just to wake up and feel "If we are not in the same room one of us will be erased from reality and tons of anxiety."

I was to busy being completely petrified of the conversation to ask further questions about why T feels that way. My Crisis level standards, AP's, how my meds are working and if I was taking them. My husband and T talked about other times I was delusional and how it compared to this time. I didn't help my case by completely trying to convince her of my logic behind each one. I can't call unless it's to go to the crisis center but I will turn in a paper by next Tuesday asking her a bunch of questions for when I see her on Friday. I see my pdoc on the 20th and I'm worried my T notes will say I'm not well when I am. I see T the day after I see pdoc so I wont have time to argue my case. At the same time I have asked her to tell me when I'm not well because it's not like I can tell and this is the first time she has (2.5 yrs.) so shouldn't I just trust her? I could ague her assessment with pdoc but wont that make me look worse?