Thank you for the replies. But perhaps I need more detail in my post.

Pretty much just got out of a bad relationship, it was emotionally manipulative, it was destroying me, and at first I felt high when we finally broke contact, because it was more than I could stand after a year of walking on eggshells everyday.

But now..

For some reason, right now, now that all the drama is over, I feel numbness, pain, loneliness, depression, sadness, the works. I don't cry though. I just can't, i don't know why. I just can't seem to face it and accept the truth.

I keep on replaying scenes, pretending to talk to someone who is not there, and overall the feelings are still there, somewhere, at the back of my thoughts everyday, he is there. Not his actions, just his face, his presence. All the good memories, and bad memories interlaced together and hit me again and again, creating mixed emotions and numbness every day.

What is this....this thing that I'm currently facing? Do I need to time? Do i need to get out more? I feel like the more I get out, the lonelier I get when I finally come back home. Being surrounded by people spirals me to despair, all those talk talk talk about their lives and the world, my reality is slowly somehow shattering and their voices are but echoes.

Maybe I'm going crazy...I'm scared, I'm afraid, I feel alone and lonely. It's like i'm existing without living. I don't want this feeling.