I'm feeling really lost and depressed. Alot to do with finances and choosing which insurance plan to choose from the marketplace. It is so confusing with what will be the best finacially. Also, seeing the hematologist today and worried he will admit me to the hopistal since my blood clot hasn't gone down any in the last three months. And without insurance this terrifies me and I hate hospitals. I just have to stay calm until this afternoon to find out what he is going to do.