I'm a 20 year old girl in my junior year of college that first received my diagnosis of Bipolar II when I was 18 (though the symptoms had been there much earlier on in my teenage years). This year I've been struggling a lot because my primary medication had been affecting my blood, and so we've been trying out new medications, most of which have left me overly manic or crazy depressed. Last night I found out that one of roommates, who has known about my diagnosis since I first got it and who is one of my very best friends, does not think she can continue living with me because my emotions affect her too much and she's finding it difficult to watch me cope. I'm hating myself not only because if I wasn't bipolar, everything would've been fine, but because it affects all five of my friends who live and love living together. I'm the reason for their unhappiness. I'm trying not to take it too personally, but my mood is significantly depressed and I'm having trouble not beating myself up for being a ****** friend this year and someone who's difficult to live with because of my disorder. Help, please anyone, I just don't know what to feel or do right now.