I had a pretty bad hypomanic episode and got really drunk and disclosed way too much about myself.

My friends say that it's fine and that they don't judge me, but I can't quit hating myself and feeling guilty

I know that I am going to get a lecture about drinking. I know that I'm seeking advice/support here, but I'd rather not go there. I'm in college, am fine 90% of the time, and don't need to make myself even more different than I am.

I just want to run away