Am I reading this right, you think you are pregnant, drinking brings out your unresolved baggage('demons'), and as a result of troubles from your past, you use sex as something to soothe those demons?

What did you feel, you'd resolved, that resulted in sleeping with someone else? Though, you seem to be 'owning up', to the fact you did sleep on him, the truth about what it is about you when drinking that brings this behavior out, is truly more owning up, that just saying, yep, I slept with that guy, right over there, on this night because I thought I'd laid my past to rest, oops, guess I didn't...