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Originally Posted by Truth in Ruin
This is what I feel/see... Mostly Grey. If I get angry, I still don't hate you. Matter of fact, I never hate you. I can see someone's good and bad qualitys at the same time, it never becomes just one of the two. I'm unable to devalue someone completely, because I can still see the good things about them, no matter how mad I am at the time. I am unable to put someone on a pedestal, because I know no one is ever perfect, and while I'm at it, no one is ever all bad. I can't bounce from love to hate, if I love you, it stays that way.
I know no one asked, but I just wanted to share how my mind works.
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This has meaning to me; a reminder in a sense as to what I strive for, hope for, live for. This is what I can gather as normal sometimes, as intellectually I comprehend it. It is what I strive for, hope for, live for. I want to achieve. Seeing it is one thing, changing it is another. For the time being, this mental balance is merely a dreamy state that seems so far away from my current b & w condition. And so I wonder . . . if I may ever find the grey.