It sounds like you are trying to hang out at the hair salón without getting a trim.

The medical model knows only medicine. There are other models. There are other places to "be" with people that dont require you to take medicine or to be in a sick role. Remember, the west has had a hundred years of psychotherapy and its only made us worse.

I was a suburban mom. Its not a natural life. Its a good life when you have money enough, but its not natural to be so alone. It's not sickness in need of medicine to need to be with people, doing something other than shopping or eating or working. A lot of women go to work because its where their friends are. They may be losing money after taxes and expenses, but work with people is worth the price they pay for the privilege. I

I'm having a day where I'm trembling like a bird. I don't where to go to just be. I called my therapist and she said I need to he on medicine and can go to the hospital. I thought about that a while. The hospital is the last place I need to be. I am not sick. I am very angry. I have good reason to he very angry. A dojo is a good place to play fight of that's what my body wants to do. I also want a hug. Narcotics anonymous would hug me if I went to their meeting and held out my arms. There are places to be. If I really can't stop quaking, I will go to the Quaker meeting house. Maybe it will start a revival of an old tradition.

There are places to be. We don't always need medically trained support. We need human contact. It's pretty funny that there is so much traffic and so little meaningful human contact.