Again. this is what I strive for, hope for, live for~ more than just moments; being able to live on more of an even plateau instead of way up high on a mountain top or in a stagnant mud puddle at the bottom. How can one embrace moments when they are aware of what is ahead of them, within them? It is difficult to utilize those moments as proceeding with maintaining the grey. Agreed; they are still only moments and that would be alright in my book if in between there was not the seemingly engulfing amount of murkiness . . . .