I was very suicidal and almost hospitalized (I convinced my Dr. that my friend was coming and that I wouldn't do anything) so my friend and then my sister flew in to be with me (they live far).

My sister then told me to come back with her to her city. So now, I have taken a sick leave for approx. 1 mo. from work and am in a new city (that I am not so familiar with) with my sister. What will I do with myself for 1 month? I will be seeing a psychiatrist on Fri., so I'm sure I'll be starting meds again (went off them 1 mo. ago because was having bad side effects).

Life is such a rollercoaster. It was so weird - my friend and sister were talking about me and my depression as if suddenly I had become a collection of symptoms, as if suddenly I could no longer make any decisions (although I have to admit, it has been so long that i have slept that my decision-making has probably been quite off). I just felt very helpless... I feel that way still... What am I doing here?????