I have suffered with anxiety my entire life as well. I know what you mean when you say that the fears become your reality. My Pdoc is great and the meds he has me on for the anxiety has pretty much stopped the panic attacks. But the down side is it has increased the depression. So I am still working on getting a good balance even after all of these years.

Sorry I hijacked your thread. I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone. I have found in my short time here that just putting my feelings into words helps more than I could have ever imagined. I used to keep a journal but that was different because it was private. Here I get actual people who read and respond.