_zh, I'm sorry you are having a rough go of it at the moment. I hope things will get better for you real soon.... I'm here to listen if that will help.

Heh, your comment about not being silent and knowing "the truth".... reminds me--- the psychologist I just recently "ran" from -- , he used to tell me I was a "truth sayer".... meaning that I don't cover things up or paint things a lighter shade. I will hold others to their "truths" and perhaps that causes some to have anxiety??.... not sure if I should be doing that.....??....

You said: "don't take on their stuff mandy....just keep on working on yours." Yea, that sounds empowering-- thank you! Ta Wanda!!!!!!!!!!!!! (ever see Fried Green Tomatoes? the women in that movie would say that when they felt empowered-- at least.... I think that's what they were saying- )

Feeling embarrassed and scared that I started this thread though...... doesn't quite seem right, so used to stuffing it all in. Odd how I seem to be at a crossroads lately---stuffing it in feels more and more like I'll explode, yet... voicing it causes much anxiety........ such a quandary!

I appreciate your taking the time to reply to me, and especially when you are so struggling yourself. Thank you very very much.

And, OK-- I will try to eat some. -- even if it's difficult. Thanks for that too. (when I was little I used to think I might just disappear if I don't eat. Some adults used to tease me that I better not go outside-- as the wind will just pick me up and I'll land in another city far away, little did they know-- I was wishing that.)

mandy