Do you realize that you might be pregnant with a baby who was conceived by a drunken mother, and, depending on the amount of alcohol, that baby might Fetal alcohol syndrome - MayoClinic.com

It seems to me that you did not drink that much, because you do not report being out of it - you talk about demons, so, I take it, so long as you were aware of the demons, you were sober enough. Or wait. Wait. You believe that you might be pregnant by the bf. So, I take it, you do not suspect that you might have gotten pregnant during the incident with the demons. So you must have used condoms during the incident, right? Well, smart girl! Still, even if you think that you might have gotten pregnant via having sex with the boyfriend after the incident, there might still have been alcohol in your blood, so I do not know. My parents were a lit intoxicated when they conceived me, and, as you see, I do not have cognitive problems, but, the thing is, you never know. Ideally, you want to an alcohol-free conception, plus, if you want to conceive, you should be taking prenatal supplements for three months before stopping contraception, because the folate in the prenatal supplements prevents neural tube defects, and building it up in your bloodstream before conception is ideal. Just to be on the safe side. I did it only for my last child, and the others were, knock on wood, born fine, but I am just saying that in an ideal scenario, those things are important.

So to me it seems that you are thinking of wrong things. If you think that you might be pregnant, then get two urine sticks (they come in a kit as a set of two) from a grocery or drugstore, and take a test. If you test negative, rejoice, because you are probably too young for a child, because you call the bf your first love, and from that I can surmise that you are young. Plus, you and your boyfriend have only been together for 2 months, so it probably is too early to talk about more children - his efforts would be better spent on a court battle with the soon to be ex wife to get more visitation time with the two children he already has.

I am just finding it hard to believe that in the middle of a pregnancy scare, you are so consumed by the thoughts you have expressed on this thread. I would deal with the pregnancy scare without any delay. If you are not pregnant, then oh joy that big issue is off the table. If you are pregnant, then you need to think about what to do - it does not seem, all things considered, that you and your boyfriend should become parents now.

Also, you know this? "Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results." - Albert Einstein quotes

I am not saying that the incident with demons would necessarily repeat itself, but given that those kind of incidents may, with a larger dose of alcohol, result in getting pregnant by a guy other than the bf (right now even getting pregnant by the bf is bad news and getting pregnant by some other guy would be disastrous news), so I would get on high effectiveness contraceptive (meaning that it has less than a 1% failure rate). Getting on a high effectiveness contraceptive would also prevent you from getting pregnant by your bf since, as I hope I explained in great detail, you do not want to get pregnant at all now.

After all of those pressing things have been taken care of, you can relax and indulge in the luxury of talking about guilt, demons, etc. First, you take care of the basics. Then, you can afford to talk about things that are not immediately pressing.