I used to like being hypomanic/manic until I had a manic episode that caused A LOT of trouble and problems that I'm still dealing with today. I admit it would sometimes feel good after spending months in a deep depression. But after the last one, I don't want to go through it again. Lately, I've been getting more mixed episodes than pure mania and the subsequent agitation and such is not worth it. I'm trying to get my life back after my last manic episode and just wish now for stability.