The wierdest thing happened to me last night. My boyfriend was going through some old pictures and he loves to show me them. He came across a bunch from his senior prom with his old girlfriend. Normally stuff like that does not bother me but she was the love of his life. They were going to get married and she was his life. In the end she ended up doing some unbelievable things and completely destroyed him. To the point that he did not date for almost 8 years after they broke up.
When he still talks about her I can sense this longing in his eyes and this tremendous sadness.
The thing that triggered me was in the pictures he was looking at her the same way that he looks at me. I just felt my heart drop to my feet and I do not know why. Im not even depressed or upset with him at all. I just wondered why I feel this way. I know that he has dealt with their past to a certain extent. But it makes me so angry to know that he will probably carry that sadness around forever and I cannot change it. I just dont know why the pictures triggered me so.

Jessica

<font color=blue> You are in this snowglobe. It is encovered in glass and secure. But one day someone comes and shakes the globe and the pieces go flying everywhere. Now they will eventually settle but they won't be the way they were before and they can never be that way again. </font color=blue>