Thanks CMyX,

Yes, have done counseling. I'm just really stuck with insecurity, indecision and low self confidence now. Started an anti-depressant to give me a boost in motivation but that has just left me depressed and more stuck while trying to dial things in. I know if I could get back out working I'd break out of it, but I just can't find the courage to allow myself to be vulnerable. I just feel very hopeless right now.