I refused to take any other medicine but hers

I hate taking pills so that wasn't something I wanted to do. I would much rather take her liquid narcotic. So from there, it became a hunt to look for her medicine that she hid from me and I found it rather quickly. Then I started taking it without her knowing.

When I drink the hydrocodone/acetaminophen medicine it's like a warm feeling going down my throat and it feels like it's coating my stomach. And the best part is that it knocks the pain out so fast! That's why I only want to take that kind of medicine rather than taking an Advil. From that point, I could see me getting a little addicted but I only take it when I have stomach cramps

I'll admit that sometimes when I would take the medicine, I wouldn't measure it. I would just guesstimate and drink it from the bottle.

After many months of me sneaking medicine, it all came to a stop.

One night, I was measuring out 15mL of my medicine (semi-supervised) and there was a little bit left in the bottle.....took *around* 30mL I have NO CLUE what I was thinking (you had a slight overdose).........I was so scared to go to sleep that night. It really taught me a lesson. ..........but eventually I went back to it.

i went all crazy with copy/paste and bold because i didn't want to take things out of context but i wanted you to see what stood out to me.

i've been an addict for a really long time and i've seen every which way a person can and has gotten addicted to drugs......this is like something out of a text book in university, like "spot the potential addict".

all the things i've put in bold, in ten years time, sitting in rehab, they'd tell you "that's when you became an addict". not kidding.

are you? i think the word is thrown around rather freely these days....but that doesn't mean you're not in the beginning stages of big trouble. not everybody follows this clear cut path like you read on-line. you'd be surprised how many people spend a decade or more carefully cultivating substance abuse before it finally grabs them by the throat and throws them to the ground.

only you can answer the question you've asked....and you have to be totally honest with yourself. if the questions make you uncomfortable, give you flutterflies, make you want to run and hide - hell, if you can blurt out whatever to easily.....you might want to dig a little deeper.

normally people don't want *just* opiates to get rid of cramps.
normally people don't go hunting for meds (tho addicts regularily do).
normally people don't drink from the bottle.
normally people don't hid what they're taking.
you had no problem swallowing pills for the 6 months after you moved.
last, normally after a scare that drastic, people can't be bother'd to touch the drug again. i've seen regular pot smokers walk away from weed for lesser reactions than what you reported.

again, nobody can give you a definite yes or no. it's impossible. you have to figure it out for yourself.....and people usually come to that conclusion way to late.