I am bipolar, and went off my meds on November 18th in the hope that I would handle it well enough to get pregnant. Some doctors will let you stay on certain meds, but mine said no. He suggested electroshock therapy if I get manic. I am scared of that, I don't know what it is like.

Right now I am suicidally depressed, failing my classes (I am taking 6 credits at the community college), and looking at shutting down my part-time business to check into the hospital.

I'm not terribly worried about being a bad parent, as my fiancé is going to be a stay at home parent, and I also believe that the skills I am learning in DBT are extremely helpful, and because I have a stay-at-home wife who will be a great help (don't be confused, we are lesbians, it will be 2 moms. She can't have the child due to physical disability)