For every action there is a consequence.......we have to learn what we are willing to accept & act accordingly. Yes, sometimes we have to test things because when things are going well, we think we don't need the meds any longer....but when we realize it's NOT working & that being on the meds really is helping that in itself should be enough for us to determine what the best action REALLY is.

It stinks having to be on meds......I am on pain medication for migraines that won't go away (24/7)....but the medication works so well that I don't feel the pain even though I do get the symptoms. But several times I tried coming off the pain medication which is similar to coming of psych meds because there is withdrawal big time if not done appropriately. I lowered the amount by 1/4.......& the migraine pain was creeping through.....I hate pain....so obviously, we never lowered the amount any more Yes, I was doing it through my pain specialist but even if I was doing it myself....as soon as I noticed that it wasn't working to come off, we went right back up to the normal dose (which is high).

So when you noticed the hypomania....is there some reason you didn't realize that coming off your meds wasn't working....or did you like that hypomania feeling & were trying to get away with feeling it again & didn't WANT to take your meds as prescribed?

Sometimes when our mind is clouded, we don't always do what is best for ourselves.....this is why the program you are in & the people monitoring how you are doing.

Were you angry that they refused to allow you to come in for the Saturday group? Were you hoping for just med compliance & not the other consequenses. Sounds like they want you to talk to your case manager more so they can understand where your thoughts are coming from & really what you are thinking in doing this?

Life is always just really about the choices we make.....wise or not wise & the effects that they cause in our life are what we have to live with. If we don't like how things turn out then we have to wisely think about what we need to change to make our life more acceptable to ourselves.