coco,i feel ya.
it's just a difficult for me....when i'm down - it's disgusting how allergic i can become to water
AND I'M NOT A DIRTY PERSON, my house is spotless!!!

just, sometimes.....i can't explain it.
there have been times my husband has picked me up and put me in there. not cause i stunk, but because "it's what a person is supposed to do".
have to admit once the initial awfulness of water on skin goes away, it feels quite good....have to crank up the heat, and sit in there and chainsmoke till the water runs cold....

something in ours brains i think. low dopamine. makes water repulsive.