I know it seems like an evil inside of you but it's not. The real you is the person that is helpful, a good listener, supportive and caring of others. That is you. The "evil" as you call it inside of you, don't personalize it. It is part of your behavioral challenges but is not YOU. It is something you can, in time, hopefully learn to control better but please don't associate yourself with this evil.

Just learn to cope and control the behaviors so the real YOU can come out more everyday

Hope this helps ~S4