K, just got back from Dr. He said it is a psychotic episode from a depression. He said it comes from just regular old depression as well as bipolar depression. He is putting me on Saphris, an antipsychotic, because the Seroquel is not working and at higher doses it will make me sleep for days (as 50 mg alone puts me to sleep and unable to function) This is definitely the worst depression I have ever had, constant suicidal thoughts and ideation and overall...depression. Next week he is changing the antidepressant, though I am not sure what other antidepressant u can take having bipolar other than Wellbutrin, everything else makes me crazier and agitated and hypo. I pray to GOD this helps get me some relief, I cannot live like this anymore. Sometimes I think it's worse because I KNOW how crazy I am acting and I can't help it. With the government paranoia I didn't really know I was acting weird, with this paranoia I know how weird it is and I just can't help it and it makes it ten million times worse. Anyway thank you guys for your input, I am pretty freaked out right now, it seems this mental sh|t just keeps getting worse by the year.