I used to not be able to go into stores because I couldn't focus and felt like I was too vulnerable if someone decided to attack me or something happened that I needed to be 'there'.

My counselor suggested a few different things, like bringing someone I trust with me to go shopping, to keep me present, and who could reassure me. If I'm distracted by something interesting to talk about with a friend I trust, it's harder for me to lose it.

Another suggestion was to go when there was no one in the store (like a 24 hour store) and just buy a couple things, and slowly work up to buying more at the quiet time, and then slowly make it so I was going there at busier times. Does it help if you go places where a lot of staff know your name? I always feel like if something were to happen, they'd be more willing to help me if they knew who I was ans saw me often, than if I was just another nameless customer.

I would talk with your t and see what options they come up with. It sounds like you're going through life with a high fear response. That would be something important to discuss with your t.

good luck!
IJ