I have been reading many articles today about nervous breakdowns and one of the causes is extreme guilt.....resulting in nervous breakdown.

I still have my gut feeling that my partner was cheating or about to.....hence why he wouldn't let me see his mobile and had deleted his internet history and applied a password to his computer.

I am still feeling like it is guilt that has resulted in the breakdown......I had told him how seeing him get into the woman's car and driving off had made me feel physically sick and he did not come the following day with his mobile and to talk. He also knocked me over to protect his mobile and that could have caused guilt too.

Maybe he knew that he would have to tell the truth and he was feeling guilty and that led to the breakdown.

That would account for why he won't see me in hospital as he says it would be very "difficult" and he feels it may "setback his recovery".

Afterall, if you had nothing to hide and were innocent wouldn't you want to see you partner and put things right between you both???

Maybe he is just seeing his father as parents care for you unconditionally and his father won't ask questions and therefore he doesn't need to face what he has done and the guilt resurface???

Things just going around and around in my head at the moment and still no answers or closure.

Still no sign of the card, that his father said that he had got to write, and give me either.

Well I am still going to be the person I am, and be true to myself and send the parcels of gifts and cards, with his father for his birthday tomorrow.

As until he speaks to me, I don't know for sure, what has happened, or what is happening.....I may have it completely wrong??

Thanks for your support x