Hi all, I am new here so I am sorry if I do anything wrong.I am having the worse period in my life and I want to do my best to get better but so far.. nothing changes. I've been in a relationship for 4 years, he was my first love, first everything. I hope it makes sense if I say that I really loved and love that person, we were going to get married next year. He was a drug addicted and for the past 7 years of his life he was on methadone "treatment" program. In country where we lived it was too easy for him to get more when he wanted it, so there was no control. Drugs were making him lazy, tired, unhappy sometimes, it was very hard for him to start doing something with his life (like better job or education) while he was on drugs.
This summer we decided to ask his family for help so they would pay for his rehab and they were more than happy to help. He had to go to Iran with his dad and do it over there, I stayed at home in our apartment, we were on the phone every day, he was saying how much he is missing me/loves me, he was saying that doctors tell him that he is better of changing his life a little and maybe move some place different, but he was promising that he will come back to me coz he can't he can't without me. I waited and waited, it took over 2 months. Finally, one day he called me saying "I am sorry, I am not coming back" he said he is a different person now and he wants different things, that he doesn't love me, that I should never trust a drug addict.
It killed me, in many ways. Pain was and is so big that I just can not find any words to describe it. Our relationship were not perfect, I cheated once, he did too, but it seemed like we both knew what we have and that we should do everything to keep us together, to keep "true love" alive.
He doesn't want to have any contacts with me, he lives in a different city now and he doesn't want to see me. He blocked me on all social networks websites, I tried to text me creating 3 different accounts on facebook, sometimes he reads what I write and then he blocks me, again and again... I just can not believe that this is the man who wanted to have family and kids with me, a man who only few months ago would do anything to make me happy. Is it possible that I was fooled and it was all lies? Every day we were together, side by side no matter what and now he won't say even a word to me, he didn't even come to see me to break up, after 4 years! I feel like I am so broken and that there is no way ever to recover from something like that. I wish I could understand the situation better but I can't, simply because he won't even talk to me.
I am sorry for such a long story.. I did my best to make it shorter. Can anybody give me advice?