hi therealme, a lot of what you said has happened to me also, so know you are not alone in this, you have a second chance with your wife and kids dont waste it, it is going to take time for you to be trusted again with your meds by your family, but that time will come, first learn to trust yourself again and your path will become clearer,

i also express a lot of my feelings via poetry rather than posts, sometimes i cheat and use others poetry when i cant find my own words to express how i feel but most of the time it is my own, do you ever post any of your poetry?