This can verry greatly for me. There are times that I leave after a heavy session, and I instantly push everything away. It's like I know that I can't deal with it any longer. There are other times when the emotions come flooding out as soon as I walk out the door. This happened just this evening during my group. I held it together, but as soon as I was heading for the door tears started falling, and by the time I made it out the building I was sobbing. For some reason there are also times that I leave and I feel that I have to be around others. When that happens I will go to a coffee shop or a restaurant where I know it will be busy.
ETA - I don't have a car. So however I act is a bit more out there in the public. I am not sure how much that effects me though. I'm not saying that it doesn't. I just don't know if and how it does.
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