Boopers, Rainbowz, GG, jacqu10, Faith's alive and K.d., thanking all and hoping not to mis anyone for the kindness you are sharing in your words with me. It is weird as I am obviously trying to process in my sleep what I can't while awake. Thus the sleep does not wish to come.

I did not know this man. he died to me a long time ago. I have memories, some of them hilarious and some quite painful. I have some awareness of his soul from back then, that he understood and felt deeply before the disease took him away. We hung a bit shortly those many years ago. He was not afraid of me.

The sad part for me is to be dead, alone, for so long with-out anyone knowing. However, I am sure he wished it so, He could not have accomplished such a vulnerable deed knowing others were around.