March 13, 2005 3a.m 30 days after my childhood friend turned 18 he was coming home from havana and got hit head on by a druck driver and killed him instantly I grew up with him pretty much but while he was around i was always happy as in smiled, laughed, joked and just enjoyed life kinda i think since i was adopted by my grand parents has made me depressed and the way i am but could i have gotten severe depression because of my childhood friend dieing i think it was 4 days before he died i broke up with my girlfriend that i was with for about a year or so that kind of brought me down a bit but then when i heard the news about him dieing i had like this mad crazy depressed vibe hit me out of no where and for 2 years now i have just felt like there isn't much hope in life anymore