Hello... My name is Kelly and I'm 30 years young. I've recently hit rock bottom and figured I'd give this online world of support a try. From what I've read so far, this seems to be a kind caring community. Where do I start?? I've been battling generalized / social anxiety and depression on and off since I was a teen. Been on a variety of Anti-d's, (all of which had to go off of, after giving them a fair trial, due to my extreme sensitivity to side effects). Am currently just taking Klonopin for anxiety which helps a tiny bit, but not much. As of lately, my life is at a complete standstill and I feel absolutely lost, depressed, lonely and anxiety ridden. My license was suspended back in May 06" for six months and that is when I took a turn for the worse ....I lost all my independence. I had to rely on everyone to drive me around and take me places and in the process I lost my self-confidence and self-esteem. Now that I have my license back, I'm still not working since my anxiety symptoms have been overbearing and through the roof. Although, I have been looking non-stop, applying and faxing endless resumes in, but after months of having no solid structure, I feel like I'm on the inside looking out. Feel as if I've become agoraphobic upon the loss of my driving privileges but now that I have that back, I'm so very out of practice with living what one would call a "normal" life. Simple things such as driving to the store is enough to make me feel like I'm losing my mind. I don't want to sink any lower and to be honest don't think I can. I'm sick of crying, yet I can't stop. I'm here to meet new people who know what it's like to feel trapped and as if you're living under a dark cloud. Life should not have to be this way, yet why can't I just move on? I hope through this site I'll be able to find any words of encouragement and find hope for the future. Thanks for listening to me ramble.