My P'doc mentioned today that it would be good if I could shop at a quieter time of the day, so I will see how that goes. Today I was just so angry and frustrated with many things. My P'doc said it would be healthier if I could try and develop a different attitude. He wasn't trying to minimise how things are.

I get stuck on thinking how I should better and should cope differently. It basically boils down to not accepting my mental illness. Even my p'doc wrote in some letter recently that I was severely disabled because of my mental illness.

So as I left the clinic today I started to laugh. I have a mental illness. Kept on laughing because I have a mental illness and that explains why things happen the way the do. It explains a whole lot. And I kept on laughing.

I am mentally ill. There I said it. I confessed it. I can be mentally unhinged at times. But I will keep on rowing this boat. I will do my best at rowing and I will take time out when I need to.