(((((((PeachCream22)))))) Glad you posted and hope you find help that will help you out of this very dark place you are in. We are here to listen to you if you need us.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin
"Each morning we are born again. What we do today is what matters most." -Buddha