I don't normally comment on this board but I've responded to your threads before and i'm sorry you're suffering.

Self harm is like an itch you can never scratch - self harm only leads to more self harm, it's so awful in that it promises something it will never give, it never relieves it only fans the flames higher.

I'm covered in scars, truly covered. I've not harmed for a considerable length of time now. I stopped when I realized that it was mostly other people who were causing me to want to do this to myself. I figured why should they be allowed that type of hold over me - they should be the ones hurting not me. And as long as I kept reminding myself of that the urge to harm became gradually less and less. It really was that simple and I realize i'm lucky in that respect.

I don't know why you harm, I just hope that eventually you come to a greater understanding of it and manage to stop.