Ohhhhhh... that hurts. I'm so sorry you're hurting... That's a really difficult thing to deal with.

Well, I'm glad you were up front with him though and told him about your depression when you did. He obviously has issues of his own that have nothing to do with you. It's better to have found out about his issues NOW instead of later. So, as painful as it may be, he probably wasn't a man you would ever be able to be yourself with.

While I don't really know what you're going through, I DO know the agony of having someone that I loved walk away from me. After that the world seemed pretty bleak, dark and depressing to the extreme. I know that I felt like giving up and thinking that I never wanted to be in another relationship and that I didn't want to fall in love with anyone ever again. Yeah, I'm another person that gets to try to cope with severe depression too.

But, much to my surprise and delight, the woman that I've now been married to for almost 39 years came breezing into my life and changed it forever. She's always known about my depression and accepted it from the beginning. She helps me get through times when I'm lying at the bottome of the well and can see no hope or future...

The right man will come along, even though it might not feel that way now. It will happen. So, it's OK to grieve the recent loss of your boyfriend. But when you're done grieving, please try to give it another try. All is NOT lost, even though it might feel that way right now.

My heart goes out to you...

Dan